So I don't get how he turns me into a school girl with a crush. It's dumb as I am still married, well at least on paper, so this shouldn't matter at all. I love my husband but I'm not in love with him any more, he's the same way with me. So we have an open relationship because we can't divorce because I can't take care of myself yet.
But back to the reason I'm writing this. I have a wonderful friend who was there for me the last time I went through something bad and offered to let me go to him and become stable. I loved him for that because I only have one other person I could do that with but he died a few years back. Now he has managed to get me all twisted up inside. It's dumb because I know he's just flirting and that's it. And honestly I should let it go because he doesn't even live in the same state as I do and he's never home because of his job. I swear I just wait for a text message from him which is not frequent. Other than these past 2 days I heard from him 3 to 6 months ago. So really it's dumb. I honestly don't think about it when I don't hear from him but turn into goo when I do. It's just frustrating because I won't ever go anywhere without my dogs and honestly I don't think anyone will be willing to take us all on. Lol so when the husband and I part ways it'll be me and my pups and that's it. Nothing will be in my future. Oh well, my pups love me so it's not that big of deal.
Ok I'm done for now...
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